. "Ku'uipo" I hope this doesn't seem as desperate as it feels... because I feel desperate to reconnect with you and I really don't have any way of reaching you any more. Over the last two years, I've pushed you so far away from me... Ironiy, I've done so by clinging to you. Every moment since we were still close has served to make me realize how lucky I am for having known you, and even though I've managed to sort of keep my life together, those moments have also involved a lot of grief and guilt and over the way things have become between us. I know I spiralled quickly when we split, and that my manic attempts to keep in touch with you were off-putting to say the least. I know you've probably moved on with your life and all but forgotten about me, completely. But I also know that you are forgiving, kind, and able to look at things objectively. I know you're smart, and , and tougher than anyone I've ever known, and I know that we cared deeply for each other, and that we found in each other a common . I hope you have made many friends and established a supportive personal community in Bend. I hope that you know what a truly special person you are, and that my dysfunctional ways of communicating and behaving when I was with you didn't have a lasting negative effect on you. Your influence taught me a lot and showed me even more about myself, and who I want to be. I admire, respect, and care for you deeply... my feelings for you have NEVER been strictly sexual, romantic, domestic, or anything else along those lines. I have always just been drawn to you as the wonderful, amazing individual you are. Even with all the time that has passed, I sit here writing these thoughts and tears well up in my eyes. I'm doing well with my life, but losing your friendship and presence in my life has had a resoundingly painful impact on me. I love you... and when you can't be around someone whom you love, it hurts. I've come to accept this as the way it is... because I don't have a . You can't fix a cut by taking a pill. You can't get better from a cold by wearing a . As it is... I don't have a OR a pill. You are the only one who can resolve the problem I'm having, because the problem I'm having is that there is so much distance between us. I don't want you to feel like I'm trying to pressure you into contacting me. I've never wanted to pressure you or ask you to do ANYTHING you don't want. I just want to do whatever I can to let you know that if you ever need a supportive friend, or you can think of any reason in the world you might want to reach out to me, I will be here... eager to be there for you in whatever capacity you want me. So if you can me, or write to me... I really can't express how happy I would be to hear from you. I wonder every day how you are doing... I tell myself that you must be doing well, because I'm in such admiration of who you are and what you are capable of. I hope you are never lonely. I am alone... and I get lonely sometimes, but for the most part, I am just happy to be learning how to be the best version of me... a I would not be on if not for you. You changed my life for the better. You made me a better man and you took nothing for yourself. I hurt you, made you cry, and pushed you away, even though I never really wanted any of that. I never knew what it was I did want, until you came along. Now I've spent the last years knowing exactly what I wanted, only to face the realization every day that I might never talk to you again. All I want in this world is for you to be happy. If I have to keep my distance for that to happen, so be it. I would rather spend my entire life alone than ever be the cause of one more moment of sadness for you. Because I do love you, I'm just going to accept my solitude and live out my days the best I can. But because I do love you, hearing your voice would be an indescribably happy moment for me. So all I'm really asking of you is that you live a good life. Be happy... and share your beauty and excellence with the world, because you are a true miracle to me. If you ever feel the urge to contact me... do it. If it's what you want, just know that it's what I want, as well. And I'm a better man than the one I was... thanks to the you led me on. Thank you.
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